Michael Boccardo

WHY MY MOTHER SPEAKS OF DEER


because joy        because hooves & speckled backs             the flare 
of a tail tipped white      because the field            & the woods beyond 

the field            risk giving up such stillness         such elegance     
& without each nimble step        there would intrude an echo       an absence         

before the tremble         & the spill like color       from the lip 
of a painter’s tube          she speaks because         the sky softens   

rinses clean the hours     & with them her memory           where shadows 
need a body       a self     some reason for being    & the strangeness housed 

inside her mouth            is now not a name          but the idea 
of a name          rust-warped & twisted by what the wind              leaves behind     

because night     is a bloated black tongue             learning to pray again
because the cruel ceremony        of moon & stars click                 too quick 

into place          my mother speaks of deer           because everything 
must end           everything must starve               until all that shows are the bones             

of old photographs         because her life              is a well            
culled from antler & thicket        a well    doe-eye dark     into which she lowers     

the vessel          of her own forgetting     so she may lift    
what resembles haunch               then flank then fleece     the tender spell              

spun soft           between palm & pulse                because survival 
is spare is reticent          a sequence receding       like tracks tendering down 

a trail                an infinite lure toward home                   because home 
is a bed of nettles                       wrought with every myth           yet to be born

 

Michael Boccardo’s poems have appeared in various journals, including Kestrel, storySouth, Santa Clara Review, Mid-American Review, Iron Horse, The Maynard, The Southern Review, Prairie Schooner, Nimrod, Cimarron Review, and Best New Poets, as well as the anthologies Spaces Between Us: Poetry, Prose, and Art on HIV/AIDS and Southern Poetry Anthology, VII: North Carolina. He is a four-time Pushcart Nominee and a finalist for the James Wright Poetry Award. He resides in High Point, NC, with three rambunctious tuxedo cats. Additional work can be found at www.michaelboccardo.com