Sally Ashton
4.6 Billion Years
Scrolling down, reading news of the galaxy. The sun will last at most
another five billion years when it will run out of fuel, become a red
giant incinerating its own planetary system—us. Earth, our moon,
our known fellow-planets and their myriad moons, whatever else
wanders in interstellar space, vaporized—who cares about the exact
science—it’s the fact there’s a predictable kapow versus an
imagined eternal existence. This puts our solar system’s lifespan
roughly at its midpoint, a point my own life can no longer be said to
occupy. Middle-aged galaxy. I’m at the 2/3 point at least. Another
30 not-improbable years to go before my own for-sure demise. In
planetary years, I’m older than the sun, a good second half of its life
still ahead, and Earth’s with it, barring incoming asteroid or global
self-annihilation. My god, I am older than the sun.
** “4.6 Billion Years” appears in The Polaris Trilogy anthology as part of the Lunar Codex project which will be sent to the Moon in 2024.
Sally Ashton is a writer, teacher, and editor-in-chief of DMQ Review, an online journal featuring poetry and art. Author of four books, her most recent, The Behaviour of Clocks, a hybrid series, was published in 2019 by WordFarm Press. Her fifth collection, Listening to Mars, is forthcoming in 2024.